this is real, this is me.

Hellooo..

im bored so i post..

i jus come back from alah aderlah..[:

in the morning did homework..

everything done but i leave some question out..

i dunnoe how to do mahh..

finished my art aready..

actually it was easier than i thought..((:

i was like sitting in my room..

suddenly alot of ideas come into my mind..

so quickly draw..

but not that nice lah..

my drawing..haiya..dunnoe wat to say...

my friends can draw even better than me..haha..

after all that..

mummy n daddy ask me n my siblings that question again..

i was frustrated...my abg too..

we too jus went to our rooms n change...

then walk off from my house..

but we go separate ways...

i jus dun get it why they have to do that...

why cant they just make peace..

haish..watever lah..

so i went to somewhere..

eventually it was raining so i sat at the usual place

where me n my bandmates will hang out..

but this timee im alone..)):

then suddenly adeq turn up..

he say he was otw and he saw me..

so he accompany me..

i told him everything since he knew aready..

thx adeq for being there for me

n let me cried out everything on u..

then mummy n daddy come n fetch me...

i was shock to see them actually there..

but then i saw nenek inside the car..

no wonder lah..

so go home..

so now..

blogging..

chatting wif adeq,nazirul n shafiz...

byebye everybody..((:

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

11:05 AM

HELLO(:

i jus got back from piano lesson..

plus tuition n campcraft..

okae i will start wif friday..

fRiDAY..

went to school alone at first..

thought my dad want to send..

eventually NOT..

gahh...my dad is sooo...urgh!

so i wake early for nth...tsk..

okae..at bus stop..

then saw hayyu.

so went to sch wif her..

n..n..i saw MnR...haha...

long time nvr saw MnR..

ACtually not long arh..haha...

i was bored..

but luckily adeq sms me..haha..

first period art...

okaelah but not long

becoz the principal actually took abt 15 mins

just to say abt 'o' levelss.

i didnt even pay attention..lol...

so mDm wee asked to do the 6 grafiti of roses..

hmmph..still haven completed yet..

but i think i going to start on it today

chey semangat...haha..

okae den sci,history,eng..

then go kfc wif hayyu n fifa..

sya n nad go home..

if not..usually they will go wif us..

okae...then go n find farah's chocolate..

so difficult to find sey.

we go from one shop to one shop..haha..

even 7-eleven oso dun hav..grr..

so nvm..jus buy the normal one..

then go back sch..

change for npcc..

n this time..i didnt forget to bring anything..

hahhaa..

actually got lcpl n 3rd class drill badge test..

but was cancelled..

coz some of us were not ready..

but then got training of it..

so everyone of us nid to shout command...

grrr...it was hot..

my skin tone is getting darker..

sobs..sobs..

then play water bomb..

wif sec 1 n the rest..

lol..best..everyone kene badly..

im wet..grrr...

but saiful is more wet..haha..sabo..

but fun..fun..fun..

okae then wait for syahirah..

go home..

bath..

change..go madrasa..

didnt eat..no time..haha..

nvm..im on diet anw...haha..mcm phm lah..

so go madrasa..

then mus do project...lerrr...

but easy lah..haha..

then in class..

didnt pay attention..haha..

msg adeq lah sey..haha..

adeq entertained me...

wani say i msg bf..

aper jer..

single lah sey..hahhaa..

then adeq start to merepek..

normal..haha...

but still he is FUN!

haha...

then went home wif wani..

long nvr walked wif her..

then go home..

online sekejap..

then sleep..

SAtUrDaY..

toDAy..i wasnt in a good mood in the morning..

coz of some reasons...

then cheer myself up during campcraft..

then go home...

again rush home..

bath..change...

go tuition..

tuition ended early..

so good..n i oso have enuf time to eat

but eventually my mood was change by sOMeBoDY..

Dun wan to mention the name..

i was so irritated..

stop asking me questions can?

u already noe..n u did it again..

grrr..kae..cool izza cool..lol

then quickly rush to piano lesson..

haha..fun..fun..

then went home..

otw home..

adeq called...

so okae atleast im not bored..

he keep asking me wen to meet..

adeq..u miss me ehk?

hahaha...wait lah adeq..

im busy lah..aha...

later i tell u kae?

hahha..

thats all for today..

i jus want to sleep..hahaa

Bye BYe EVERYbody...LovesSS U All...((:

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

11:13 AM

hello..hello..yayness...today fun fun fun...haha...i mean better than yesterday...yesterday was a horrible one...okae..go sch..thought of going to sch wif abg..but he sick...rest well abg...btw..its not my real abg...haha..me going wif real abg???can dream lah..haha..okok..first period geography...fun lah but smt i dun understand..haha..coz im not listening..haha...then pe...wah..high jump..i jus cant pass one..i think i hurt my shoulder wen i jump..suddenly jer my shoulder start to ache..pain u know...i cant even carry my beg wif both shoulder..onlie one..)):
haha...then recess..i jus ate biscuit..didnt go canteen..went straight up to class coz canteen crowded n i dun intend to hurt my shoulder anymore...then eng one period..yay!bestbest...idk y but i dun have interest to learn english..then maths...bestbest..teacher give sticker to every question we got rite..new tactic lah..haha...but..but..childish...haha..then malay..lagi best..coz..coz cikgu nuraini nvr teach coz she have to do some work due to the 'O' levels thingy..so she gave work..normal lah..i quickly do..haha..better than doing nth rite...haha...then aesthetic..i jus hate aesthetic can?Somemore art...haish..no interest in this art thingy..i mean i do but drawing about singapore jus so bored for me...haha...then chinese course...wooo...yay!!fun..best..then straight go home..so kuaikuai rite...i noe...haha...walk wif fifa till reach her home..omg..then rain..grr..i have to walk in the rain..baik arh..haha..while walking home..saw aidil..aidil waited for me..haha...ppl..aidil is my adeq angkat okae...haha...dun think differently arh...so chat wif aidil for awhile...so now at home..blogging..currently chatting wif aidil,afifah,chris(penpal),daniel,hirzi,halina and finally reen..(wah busy nyer aku)..hahaha...

thats all ppl..take care...love u all....((:

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

9:27 AM

hello...hello...hello...
hahaks..okae..just come back from npcc campcraft...
Afifah n Syahidah stayed back...
Afifah waited for me...
Sya..waited for alah u noe..haha
actually i noe u dunnoe...onlie fifa noe...haha..
u dunnoe so no nid to ask kay?kay?
haha...
&&..btw..Thx Afifah For Waiting For Me...
Syg KAU...Hahaha...
Sya..aku syg kau jgk..lol..
JUs NOW....school was absolutely fun..
i dunnoe y..but jus fun...
love my friends alot larh..
then..then..piano lesson cancelled..grrr...
now bored..
so play tic tac toe wif abg Mizi..
i win aready..he owe me chocolate...
but..but he say he give chance...haha..
so im not happie..now playing another match..
hahaha...see hu wins...haha...
fun lah play wif him...
Tomorrow got homecons..
yay!!but got test..lerrr..haha
haven study..good..good...baik arh izza..haha..
yay!!i win...abg owe me chocolate...haha..
lame lah..haha...
klah...byebye..

to nazirah-jgn nk sebok blh?mind ur own business...(chey...mrh sey)
to aidil-relaks lah aidil..later i find a way...(mcm phm..tapi serious)
to Mr.K-Im soo pissed off wif u can??nk tipu ckp jer lah..tkyah nk ader attitude...grrr...

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:16 AM

okae hello ppl!!today school was eventually great i guess..got that chinese lesson..woohoo..fun...fun..hayyu nvr come..=(..hope she will come tomorrow..n hope that she will be okae...so..maths teacher nvr come..yay..haha..free period..so talk n talk n talk..haha...u noe wat..im starting to like cme..story n story n story..better than las yr lehh...haha..malay is soo watever...the seating arrangement is soo cramp...sempit tau...urgh!!the teacher soo leceh...so done homework...must do if not she nag non stop...haiya..in a moment..going to offline..coz want to study geog...if im not wrong got test...haha...nvm lah..jus study for emergency..haha...

&& I hate making choices lahhhh....
So stop asking me that question can?Can?
To my friends..dun teraser...not refering to u all...((:

Byebye..love u all...

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

12:08 PM

Hello...

im bored lah sey...

so post..post..

simply i got nth to do at all...

until 5 pm lah..

coz i got that piano lesson..blablabla..

morning..woke up early..

damn early...i dunnoe why...

want to continue sleeping but..cant..

so wake up lah..

bath...

found out that mum is not at home..

so was dad..

dunnoe where they had gone to...

so watever lah..

my two brothers are still asleep..

so go out..bought breakfast for them..

woke my little brother up or he will skip his madrasah..

so i eat aready..

play comp for awhile till 11..

then change..went to shafiz house..yeah..

the moment i look at him..i aready know that he jus woke up and jus bathed..haha.

so i started teaching him how to play a simple song..

so that he won be bored learning chords every time..

teach him how to play the song..

25 minutes-micheal learns to rock..

and..yay! he is trying to get it..haha..

so cute wen he play..so smgt..

at the end of the lesson..he finally get the song..but still need improvement..

i promise him nex lesson i will give him lollipop..ahaha..

and to learn new songs..=D

then went home..

mum n dad still not at home..watever lah..

im really bored sey...

completed homework..

finish practising..

i jus dunnoe wat to do next..

no one is chatting wif me now except for afifah n hirzi..)):

okaelah..

thats is for today..

byebye...

&& tomorrow the start of chinese watever it is called..ahaks..

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

8:04 AM

Hello..
Okae...hi...haha
ermm...wat arh..
i actually dunnoe wat to say...
this will be a short post
i lazy to blog lah today...
nex time i will be enthu in posting..haha
so okae...yesterday got campcraft training...
it was fun becoz we manage to do it better than the last week..
but still not up to perfecct yet..
after 2 rounds..satisfied aready..
play soccer wif sharmaine,faieqa n achmad..
fun lah..haha...
okae den go home..
then bath..
go madrasah..
tired lah..almost fall asleep..
so thats all..
today..
again got campcraft..
so went to school...
we improved...
but then sharmaine has to leave our grp n join the gadget..
so abit slow lah..
injured my hand..
blisters everywhere...
sobs..
then i leave early..
need to go tuition...
rush home..bath..
straight away go..
skip my lunch..watever..not important..
headache in tuition..so confusing..
until 5..rush to abg adi house...for piano lesson..
hmmph...wat a busy day..
now finally im free n get to use the comp...
im tired..
i want to sleep..haha..
k..tats all..
byebye..
ily all..!!!

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

11:50 AM

hello ppl..
just come back from school..
is it late?
hahaha...actually i stayed back for nth sey..lol
actually got campcraft..then sharmaine go home..
so cancelled lah...)):
n..n..guess wat?
MY HP GOT CONFISCATED!!!
grr..long story..actually short but still dun wan to tell..=P
i sad u noe..hp kene confiscated..
i cnt live without my hp..
chey..mcm phm gituk..haha..
so..so..
after sch..went to blue room...FIRST time sey...
this will be the first n the last..haha..
so okae..wait for about an hour like tat..so long..
but luckily,
ACHMAD talk to mr sng...
haha..yeah!!
got release earlier..
Thx lah sey...
u save my life twice in fact..((:
haha..okok..
then wait for afifah since there is no npcc...
so i wait...walk here..walk there..
say hi to haziq n hafidz..
then at 4 plus..afifah finish..yeah..haha..
then go home..
when go home..laugh here n there...haha..
so now at home..
blogging
chatting wif hayyu..((:
byebye..((:

p.s:my friends are superb can???haha..i love my friends

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

9:40 AM

hello..
im back..ahha.
im bored so post again..((:
im tired but i want to post..haha..
gonna tell u wat happen..

ok..wen to that boy house..
wat that boy..that boy..
he got name okae..haha
his name is Shafiz..haha..
very cute2 boy..
okae..so in that one hour..
we learn new chords..
Shafiz is quite a quiet boy.
So he shy..shy like tat..
dun talk much..
along the way when i teached him
his face is soo STG!
haha...i dun even noe..if he understand or not..
finally..i talk soo much..i thought he understand..
then he say..
"Kak...Fiz tk phm"..
haha...blur lah..
then i explain all over..okae..finally he understand..phew..
then wen i was about to go home..
Shafiz say..
"Kak..ni fiz belikan kakak lollipop"..
aww..so sweet..haha..
cute..cute lah..
of coz i say thx..then pinch his cheeks...haha...
thats all...byebye

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:57 AM

It was all fake.The laughter,the talk,the smile,it was all fake.Nth was real.Just because of the presence of an elderly,they had to put an act.So pathetic.Now,everything has changed.It is so quiet.They are both giving a cold shoulder to each other.What an attitude.I just couldnt take it.School,homework,job,and now this.Sooner or later,im going to break down if this continues.I wish it would stop.

OK ppl..now still at kak reen house.
thought dun wan to go.
but i left my guitar there.
So have to take.
A few minutes later,
i have to go to work
in this tired condition.
I have to teach a boy play guitar
but worth it lah..got paid mahh..
the boy oso cute2..very stg2 like that..
school was great..
alot of teachers nvr come today..
malay period was like urgh!!
dunnoe wat to say..
in the morning..i was soo angry at dad..
dun wan to tell why..
but luckily friends was there to bring me up back..
thanks girls..((:
okaelah..
byebye..((:

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

8:45 AM

Yesterday night was a horrible night for me and my siblings.The night that i dont want to remember ever again.The night whereby im scared to go home.The night where i cried as hard as i can.The night whereby every kid do not wish for it.That night was the night that the word was being mention.I was scared but i had to be strong for my little brother.There was shouting and screaming and even the sound of broken things.I just wish it would stop.Theres nothing i could do.Everything finally stop after the door was being slammed.

Here i am in kak reen house.
I didnt go home after school due to some reasons.
Woke up in the morning with a heavy heart.
I didnt want to go to school but..i have to.
I pretend nth had in front of my friends.
But i couldnt take it so i had to tell Afifah.
Yes,i cried.
But soon my tears ran out.
Im fine now i guess.
I thanked my friends for being there for me.
I walked home wif Afifah.
Walked till we reached her home.
Then im alone.
So again i cried when the image pass thru my head.
Luckily,there was no one.
I jus dunnoe who to go to.
The rest have their own problems too.
And i dun wan to add on it.

I dun have the mood to carry on.

I jus wonder why they just couldnt play along?

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

8:30 AM

HEllo..((:

okae..jus come back from school..
im tired lah sey...haha..
raining..shivering here..)):

okae so today..
school as per normal..
sec 1 go camping lah sey..haha..
cute lah..stg2 like tat...haha...
have fun sec 1 campers!!..
haha..maths teacher is replace by mr alien!...
haha..no lah..mr yang..
so jus now do one wrksht..help hayyu wif it..
haha..okae blah..blah..blah
then gt assembly...wat the fish..
kene lecture sey..
like wat onlie..
abt road safety n financial system..smt like lah..
then have spot check..urgh!!
everybody like quickly pin up the fringe..
all look so innocent..haha...
okae..so im save..phew..
then have another lecture on peer tutoring..urgh!!
blah..blah..blah lah...
then go out from hall..
take out pin..hahaha...
then go lot 1...buy ock...((:
go home..
now chatting wif..
ACHMAD..((:
HARDY[dun sad2 lah]
HAYYU..((:

okae..till here..byebye..((:

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

9:40 AM

YO..HI...HELLO!!

haha...crapness..
is there even such a word??haha..
okae..first of all..the last post i deleted it..
accidentally lah..
wat to say...stg mahh..haha..
n second of all..
I LOVE MY LIFE..
i did say this in that las post..haha...
okae..watever...
actually i jus come back from wat arh?..ahaks..
nolah..i jus come back from campcraft npcc..
or is it npcc campcraft?
watever lah..jus try to understand can?
haha...okae..but i will tell about yesterday first..
=D

Yesterday..
hmmph...well got art on the first period somemore..haha...
i very extra sey...teacher say colour one section..
i colour everything..haha..
wat a waste of time...haha...
but one advantage was that i finish aready..
n teacher say CAN!
haha..so no need to do anymore..yay!!
then blah..blah..
got fire drill..
urgh!so hot n the field was muddy..
i keep asking jeichel to endure..hahha..
npcc mahh..haha..crap..
then go eat kfc..
woo..sedap lah sey..haha..
then npcc..
hmmph...
smt happen..
I FORGOT TO BRING MY BLACK SOCKS..
urgh!smt i nvr forgotten to bring before..
so panic lah..haha..
quickly ask around..
but fail!
call achmad..
then he was finding for me..
then he say dun have..
then i cry..)):
i scared u noe..haha..
then achmad come back..
say zuhairi have...
phew..he save my life sey..hahaha...
THX AMAD N ZUHAIRI..!!..
hahaks..
then do drills..
normal lah...
then play game...
fun..fun..fun..
amad like was helping me by giving the ball to me..
even though he is not suppose to do tat..haha..
sweet lah sey...haha..
haha..okok..then go home wif afifah..
then bath...change..
quickly go madrasa..
haish...every friday..im this tired...
madrasa was like so boring coz i got no one to talk to sey..
its like not me like tat..
in madrasa so kuai kuai like tats...means being so quiet like tat..
but in sch...crazy!!haha..

TODAY..
campcraft..
wake up early..
daddy send..
wait for amine..
then reach sch..
msg...msg..amad..
near oso wan to sms..
ahhaa...lawak2...
then do the flagstuff..
manage to bring it up but very slow...
come on ZHENGHUA FLAGSTUFF GIRLS..
u can do it..
competition is one month away..
mus practice alot..
okae..then..then..
amad smile so cute..hahhaa..
afifah was rite lah sey...
hahha...
then go home..
otw..amad call..
so chat..chat..until i reach home..
so now blogging..
listening to song..
tats all i guess..
will post again soon okae peeps..
tc everbody..

that girl-izza hazirah

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

5:40 AM

HELLO EVERYBODY!!

wow...haha..long time tk post...

haha..wat english is that...haha

i will not post long anymore tau...

ingat tk?

hahaha...im hyper today so dun mind me..haha

so sch is starting to be even great for me..

i dunnoe y..but i jus love sch...hahah

okae...mepek lah sey..

tapi seriously fun lah sey..

ketawer2..haha..

my life is getting better n better..

haha..woo!..madness..

art..art..art..

mepek tau!..

everybody dun do!hahah..

joking onlie lah sey..

my theme music..

same as SYAHIDAH!..hahaa

okae..wat to say..

nth lah..

i dunnoe wat to say!

im speechless lah sey..

hahaha..mcm phm jek izza..

currently chatting wif

HAYYU

AFIFAH

KHAIRUL

HAZIQ

ACHMAD

woohoo..gagaga...

byebye lah sey...

take care everybody

btw...i wan to thank my friends for making me laugh!

hahaha....pathetic..haha!

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:27 AM

hello everybody!!
Happy 2008 everyb0dy!!!...woohoo..
im sec2 aready...soo fast...
okae watever..
i stop on friday..
i will jus skip till today...
haha..lazy to post lahh...
take note arh..
i won be posting everyday or often
becoz sch start so i cant play comp that often..)):
understand??hahaha

TODAY..
so first day of sch..
u noe wat...first day we r aready late..
hahaha...clever rite?
haha...nvm..
all for one..
one for all..
mcm phm jer....
not everything is new..
onlie class is new..like duh!!
n of coz teachers..some onlie..
so okae..must change seating arrangements..hate it..
its the same for both malay n form class...grrr..
okae...im far from hayyu...nooo!!
oso far from afifah...again...noo!!
but near to sya..sahida...sharmaine..
okaelah tu...still fun wat..haha...
watever..im talking nonsense here..
then recess..
recess is soo weird..
its like we r the onlie class there...hahaha...
okae..in class i was like damn freezing..cold...)):
i realize that i could not take cod temperature aready..
then went home..
go lot 1..as per normal..haha..
okae..now the end!..
haha..
byebye..
i will post again soon aites!..

BE HAPPY EVERYONE!!!

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

5:36 PM