this is real, this is me.

Hello

Good day?Bad day?Im not sure. But i know,i hope, tomorrow is going to a great day. Yes its hari raya.But actually now is already the start of hari raya.Lets start from the start of the day. Okay, go school. Was feeling very low. In class, Sharmaine cheered me up before anything.LOL.Vice principal announced that the muslims will be released at 10 am. Happy of course. There wasnt any assembly due to lightning warning.Whatever it is called.Then mother tongue.Did nothing.Again,first period was boohoo for me but again Syahidah and Sharmaine cheered me up. I told them about it. They react so quickly.LOL. I love them.Thanks girls.Okay then it was maths.We played a game or a quiz. Girls vs Boys. Unfortunately, the girls lost.Its okay girls.LOL.Went home.Mummy ask to go to the shop. Was already on the way but i found that i forgot to bring the money.So went back. Take money and go back. At home, clean the house again. Was so tired and i got nothing to do.And also mummy's cooking smelt so fragrance.Made me so hungry.Haha. So i slept.I realised i have been sleeping everyday after school. Lack of sleep at night i supposed. Wake up.Bath.Study abit. Watch tv. Today, i'm having gathering in my house.Only families and cousins.Wawal was also invited.Non cousins but band mates is considered as cousins.Haha.So break fast together. Mummy's cooking was superb. Now all the cousins are making a lot of noise.Haha. They are all over the house.LOL.In my room, im with my girls and some boys.Haha.Nothing to do.So sing.Yeah.Now im blogging cause i just feel like it.Haha.And i keep texting friends.My bill is so going to be high this month but what do i care.Me and the others will be staying up late to watch all the exciting show on suria.Yay.Ok fyi only yeah..Haha.Okay.Till here.Byebye.(=

Selamat Hari Raya to all muslim.(=
Forgive me for all my wrong doings.

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

9:27 PM

Hello.

Eventually i got nothing to do and there is no exam tomorrow so again im slacking.Hmmph.So today, i wake up for pre dawn meal and now im feeling hungry but still quite energetic to help my daddy to clean the house for Hari Raya.Okay today had malay paper 1 and 2.I guess it was okay.Im glad i studied for the"peribahasa".Went Lot 1 after that.Went straight home.I was being all crazy in school but now...."dots"...Tomorrow like i said there isnt any exam and school is as per usual. I dont feel like going to school but i dont know how to ask my daddy.Sigh.What more i can say? Hmm..im addicted to one of bsb songs titled safest place to hide.I have been listening to that song for like about 100 times?Haha.Joking.Im very bored.Have to wait for daddy to go come home from the shop before i could start working.He is not working for this whole week i think cause he want clean the house,do ketupat and many more.Sigh.Hari Raya is coming and half of me is not in the mood not to celebrate.Yesterday went to late granddad grave.Yes i was down.Sobs.Tomorrow is suppose to be the happiest day with him around but yeah,he is not around.Sighh..Okay i think i crap long enough.It looks like its going to rain and im shivering when it is not even raining.Gosh.Okay.Take careeee.(=

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

2:40 PM

Hello!

Long time never post right?Since tomorrow is weekend and i can slack for today and yah im bored so yah...i post.Hee.Exam week.Hmm it has been great except for the english paper 1.Like omg.Why oh why did i wrote the wrong question?Yes im pissed with myself.Why didnt i check?Okayy.Its over and yah no point i should still brood over it.But i cant help it in thinking whether am i going to fail or not.Whats more its english.The most important subject ever.Sighsighsigh.Okay.Stop.So today.I had maths and geography paper.Guess it was okay.But not confident can get A1.Hmm.Geography paper was also okay.I guess my last night studying was worth it.LOL.Okay after that,stayed back to finish up D&T.Went to lot 1.Went home.I dont know why.But yes i was tired and i slept.Hha.Wake up.Bath.Change.Went out to break fast at greenridge.Went home.Watch tv.Went online.Chatted with Hanis,Syawal,Renick and Mizi.Hee.You know what.I just realised im getting lamer and lamer each day.Im lamer than i thought i am.Get it?And read this,Nothing feels better than to feel better.Understand?Does this even make sense to you?LOL.Okay people i want to sleep.My eyes is painful,itchy and very red for no reasons.LOL.Byebye.Gooooodnight people.(=

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

11:59 PM

Hey all..

Big sighh people.Exams start on this coming thursday!Like OMG!Im not ready.I swear.Why must time fly so fast?Darn it.Gosh.Now im preparing for my geography as it will be the second paper,Friday, that have so many chapters to study for.And also on the same day i hav maths paper 2.Yikess.Help me.Im not confident.I havent yet to start on science.Friends say they have already covered their science.I think this year my friends are going to beat me in every subject.Okok.Relaks.I shall not panic.Panic makes the situation worst.Todayy,went to tuition.Today i had a 3 hours and 45 minutes tuition.Yes.Tiring.We did a Xin Min Secondary school past year paper,if im not wrong it was Xin Min.It was okay.Why cant my school paper be as easy as theirs?Went home.Slackslack.I dont know why i was so tired.So i didnt revise on anything.I wasted time instead.Gosh.Shall not repeat that again.So at night help mummy bake cookies.Now blogging.Listening to songs.Later maybe revising or i shall start my intensive training tomorrow.I got religious class tomorrow.Sighh.Okay.Nevermind.Its for my own good.Going to get Amit and Fazira Birthday present tmrr..Everything tmr..See why i couldnt concentrate.LOL.Ok.Whatever.I have to stop here.Anyway,i wont be posting that much.Will be busy mugging,studying,revising,reading.Anything that describe me and books.Haha.Okay this doesnt makes sense.Haha.(=

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

9:02 PM

Hello..

Hmm,craziest day everr..But first shall run through the week starting from Tuesday.Was not a good day.Ended up crying at the end of the day before going home.Got coax by Azry,Syahidah,Sharmaine and the rest.Went home with Dina.Wednesday,Got P.E.So play soccer.Tiring but had superb fun with teamates.Was super tired and super thirsty so rest at class.No peer tutoring.So went home with Dina,Afifah,Hayyu and Wida.Thursday,an okayy day for me.Nothing interesting happen i guess or i had forgotten.Haha.Today,Went to school with Afifah,Hayyu and Wida.Things got better.Reach school.Assembly.Got prize giving session.People were clapping and all that but then suddenly the cheerings got louder not because of the participants but actually because of the rain.Yes it rains.Suddenly.So went back to class.First period english.Recess.CME.Mother tongue and History.So Yah.Short day but tiring.After school,stayed back for awhile.Went home with Syahidah and Dina.Then went to NTUC to accompany Syahidah.Saw my brother.So board the bus with him.Now at home.Really bored.Thought of studying later on.Yes EOY is really near and im not prepared.I got lots of chapters from each subjects to memorise and i dont have much time.Really got to put 100% effort.Cant relax anymore.Hari raya also coming.Been helping my mum out in baking the hari raya cookies.But somehow or rather,this year i dont seem to be that enthu in celebrating hari raya.Perhaps because of exams or just....sigh.Okay.Byebye people.

07-04-2008
The day everything changes.I didnt hope for this day neither do i expect for this happen.But in a blink of an eye,i lost everything.In one move.One step.One second.One day.Just one.Everything was crushed.My heart was broken into two.Half of it was taken away.There is no longer laughter and smiles coming out from me.Just tears and frowns.Everyday i prayed that it would change again but till now it never came true.It has been 5 months.Slowly it progresses but it still came back to square one sometimes.I was disappointed.I dont know what to do.Maybe you are happy now.We may be near.But still i really miss you.There is nothing i could do.I just have to resign to fate.It hurts me so much to do that but i left with no choice eventually.I moved on.Trying to forget about all this.But i cant.I failed over and over again.Eventhough,i have lost you and probably you wont be needing me but i just want you know,if you ever need me..i will forever be there for you.

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

4:33 PM

Okay hello.

A quick one will do.Today,raining.First period,english.Did corrections and stuffs.Next was science change sit wih Abbas so sit Weijun and Amit.Amit was so cute when he play with Syahidah minnie and My winnie.Haha.Next recess.Followed by maths.Go through mock exam but teacher halfway mark.Literature.Was falling asleep.But chit chat with Sharmaine to keep me awake.Lifeskills.End of school.Didnt go home.Stayed back in school with Syahidah,Amit,Abbas and Weijun.Go for the npcc meeting.It is an event after exam.It includes every uniform group and i dont feel like going for some personal reason but it is compulsory so what the heck.Just face it.Close eyes and it will soon be over.Ok.LoL.So studyy maths.While studying,we all listen to songs and such.It was just the 5 of us there.Fun.Felt rather suckish when i thought of (insert word).Only Syahidah knew.Around 4+,went home.I got headache and was tired so yah,all i want is to go home.So meet Dina and Fazira downstairs.Went home with them.Thanks to Dina.Now i know all the things that i should know about.Reach home.Bath.Went online.Planning to do incomplete homeworks at night.Exams is just next week and i feel as though i have had any preparations.Goshh.Okok.Maybe i wont be blogging like everyday.Hmm.Okay.Im done here.Byebyebye.

I cant believe my ears when i heard that they actually talk about me behind my back.I know this happened before but i dont expect it to happen again.Why?Why?Why must i be the one who gets to be their victim?What have i done to them?Im just so sad and tears just keep flowing even when i say to myself not to care about their words.Some say,just close my eyes and soon this nightmare would be over.But the more i close my eyes,the more i think of them.Sobs

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

6:19 PM

Heyhey.

Im very tired now..Hha.I dont know why.Too much fun i guess.Okay.Wake up.Bath.Watch tv.Daddy and mummy was cleaning up the store room.So i helped.But my nose was sensitive half way so yeah i stopped.Played scrabble with little brother.Watch tv.Bath.Change.Went to religious class.Had alot of laughters with norasyikin.Haha.Went home.Changed again.Like i said yesterday,today i will be going to my mummy side granny house to break fast.And this time there are equal number of boys and girls so i wont feel bored.Haha.And yes im excited because i can meet my little nephew and niece,Danial and Dinie.They are the cutest thing ever okay!Haha.Okay reach there.Among the uncles and aunts houses,we break fast at abang adi's house.Yeah.So while waiting for the other cousins to reach and for Kak Ayuni,Kak Reen and Abang Adi to come back home from the shop,I watch tv.Watch paralympics.You know im really surprised,impressed and amazed by those people who took part.Eventhough they are not like us,but they are way better than us in sports.Cool you know.Haha.Okok.So they have reached.Before break fasting,played some instruments.Nothing to do right.Haha.And my two cute nephew and niece kept clinging on me.Haha.I miss them.And they miss me too.Hahaha.So break fast.Wanted to take pictures but my phone is making trouble.Hate it.Haha.Played games.Had alot of laughters.Story here and there.Its like we never meet for ages.Haha.Yes they are my love ones.Gatherings like this can only be planned during hari raya or fasting month or even weddings.Haha.So yeah,the fun had to end.So now reach home.Done my homework but did not finished.Haha.Okay.Byebye.(=

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:10 PM

Hello

Okay.Today wake up slightly late than usual.Haha.Cause i slept late last night as i was talking on the phone with Asyraf till i forget about the time.Haha.So bath.Went to tuition.2 hourss.Then went to meet Wawal for awhile.Wawal gave a baby pooh.Now i got alot of pooh bears collections.I got 5-6 of them.Gosh..Haha.Then bath again.Change.Went to Granny house to break fast.Today is my father side.Tomorrow is mother side.Yay!Cause daddy side,i got only one cousin and he is a boy.Including my two brothers,there is 3 boys.Goshh.Im the only girl among the teens.LoL.I miss my granny cookings like seriously.Granny cooking is the best.Whatsmore she cooked my favourite dessert!Yumyum.Stay for awhile.Boys want to watch soccer.Went home.Was already full.So just went online.Edit pictures.I just put them at friendster.Lazy to post it here.Ok 12 more days to EOY.OMG.I havent even started revising especially science,geography and for goodness sake,HISTORY!Come on izza,buck up.Haha.Okay.I will end here.Byebye.GOOOODNIGHT.

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:36 PM

HELLOOO(=

Okay long time i never blog.Haha.Even favourite readers are asking me to blog.So okay,since im free now.I shall blog.Actually,i didnt blog because i was either sick or busy studying for exams,test and many more.Okay.Lets start.Monday,first day of the last term.I was sick and still came to school.Yeah.And,happy birthday hayyu.Tuesday,nothing much on.Busy night thats all cause have to do 2 compositions,both malay and english and also i have to study for math mock exam on Wednesday.Wednesday,Maths mock exam.Quite okay.Only Weijun,Abbas and Amit know what had happened during the test.Hahaha.Keep it to yourself yeah boyys.Haha.Speaking about this three boys.We made a competition on the maths test and that is who gets the lowest will have to treat the 3 other people.Haha.Thursday,D&T was fantastic.But havent finished.Too bad.I got anry and frustrated at the end of the day.Tsk.Dont ask me why.Only Syahidah know why.Friday today..Even fantastic than yesterday.Haha.Even with a sad feeling inside,i still managed to laugh alot today.Haha.Okay.Went to school alone due to specific reasons.Did History homework.As per normal,copy!Haha.Ok.Then it was raining so no assembly.Great.History test.Luckily it was open book.But there was no use of it.Haha.Then science.Did revision.Recess.Went bookshop with Syahidah and Sharmaine.Laughed alot with them.Music.English.Another period which i laughed alot.We are supposed to do work in groups.So i grouped up Sharmaine,Amit,Weijun and Abbas.We didnt do work but instead we talk about the future.About what will happen 10 years later.Haha.Crazzy right?Yeah,but they certainly make me happy.Haha.Even miss Xie laugh along.LOL.Literature.End of the day.There will be no more NPCC training due to exams i think.And we are not lazy okay!So dont say that can?They are concern about our examinations and for the muslims that are fasting.Tskk.Went home with Syahidah and Nadia.I have no mood to stay behind.Went to lot 1 to meet my friend but she say she is going to be late so asked me to meet under my block.Meet her.Went home.Went online.Chat with Azry and Wawal.Play games with azry.Haha.He keep winning in every game.Its not fair.Haha.Ok.Thats all for this weeks.Basically,This week im really happy.Really happy.Haha.There is something i realised about this week.Haha.And that is.Amit likes minnie.Haha.I mean he is so cute when he play with Syahidah's Minnie Mouse.Syahidah and Sharmaine is just soo great.I could laugh with them all day long.Haha.Weijun and Abbas,together with Amit,is all being crazy behind me.Haha.Okay.Seriously i love being with them especially my 2 bestfriends.Hha.Okay.Fun week.Hoping to have more fun next week.Byebyebye(=

13 more days to EOY!

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

3:59 PM

Hello(=

Ok.Today got tuition.Finish my homeworks.Yay.LOL.But i still got litereture,geography and another maths worksheet to do and i have to finish it by tomorrow.Goodness.Haha.Ok.Went out today.Hehe.I got nothing to do.LOL.Ok.Then come home with another few minutes to Break Fast.Today mummy cook western food which is chicken chop.Elder brother's request.Hee.Nice one brother.LOL.After that,had my prayers.Watch tv.Went online.Study abit.Watch agent cody banks.Nice show.Haha.Okayy.Tomorrow i got religious class at 3.30.I hate this man.My time slot has been changed due to fasting month.Sighh.Ok.Today is a short post.At least i post.Hahaha.Ok.byebye.Gooooodnight.

Happy birthday Khairul Anuar!(=

19 more days to EOY![oh no.]

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:20 PM

Hello(=

Okayy.Today eventually i did nothing but to study at home.Bored.Like seriously.LoL.Hmm,ok.In the morning,watch tv.Went online.Chatted with Wawal and Wida.Did final year examination paper(maths.)Finally,i finished it.But have some question im not clear of.So gonna approach my tuition teacher tomorrow.After study,watch tv again.Went online.It looks like i did a same routine over and over again today.lol.Ok break fast.Today mummy never cook.She bought food from outside.Ate 2 pieces of chapati and im full.LOL.Then had my prayers.Watch Teman Anugerahku and Nanny daddy.Fun yawh.Haha.I dont know what to say anymore.Haha.Anyways,remember i told you that my dad wanted to buy me a new phone.Yah,my dad suggested me to buy G900.But i dont want.Hee.I want W760i.Im going to wait for the time.I wouldnt want to waste my dad money though.Hehe.Im good doughter kay?LOL.Just joking.Okay everybody.This is random.Bye.Gooooodnight.(=

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

9:24 PM

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See that drawing above.Haha.Yeah.Its clear enough that Wawal did it.Hehe.Wawal got nothing to do in the library therefore he drew or should i say created(whatever lah),on his laptop.Im surprised that today Wawal finish studying earlier than me.Haha.Ok.Lets see.Today got maths remedial.Was woken up with smses from friends.I woke up earlier than expected.I was really sleepy but what can i do.After i woke,its normal that i couldnt go back to sleep.At school,start with not a good thing but i got over it after the maths remedial started.Laughed alot.The boys was making fun of the teacher.I just laughed along.Haha.Ok.Went Limbang with Afifah,Wida and Hayyu.Went home.Bath.Had my prayers and my Al-Quran reading.Then changed.Went Jurong Regional Library.Had my revision as per normal.Like i said,Wawal finished faster than me.Its only because Wawal prepared little things to study.Haha.CheaterBUG.LOL.Ok went home.Put my bag away.Went to take the "bubur masjid" with adek.Meet Wida and siblings.lol.Then watch tv and all that.Break fast.Didnt eat much though.I dont know why.I felt hungry in the day as i ate a little during pre-dawn breakfast.Ok.Tmr im totally free.So i planned to study and finished all the homeworks.Haha.See Eiss,one example of me being a good girl.LOL.Okay.Byebye people.And GOOOOODNIGHT.(=

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

9:36 PM

Hello again.

Okay people.I swear im bored and i got nothing to do.So yah like i said if im not lazy im going to blog right.So *tada* here i am.Haha.Okayy.It is still raining now.Has been been since around afternoon?I think.I never keep track of time you see.LOL.So yah,the surrounding is cold.Ok lets see.Didnt eat much during break fast eventhough i felt hungry in the day.Haha.Silly me.Im really sleepy nowadays.LOL.Mum made her own waffles and it super nice.Yeay.Now i can eat waffles for free.Haha.Ok then pray together with the whole family.Revised science with little brother.Now wacthing Nanny Daddy.It is so funny like seriously.LOL.Tomorrow got maths and science remedial.Going to meet Syahidah and Sharmaine again.Miss them and i also missed crapping and laughing with them.Haha.I also missed my other bestfriends,Hayyu,Wida,Afifah and many more.Meeting everybody tomorrow.So no worries.Okay people.Thats it.I shall end with a fullstop.Haha.Im lame..Byebye.(=

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

9:11 PM

Hello Peeps.

I got nothing to do now here.Im at West Mall Library.Haha.Simple say im with someone who like to travel around Singapore for no reason.Haha.Joking.This few days i have been going to different libraries.Of course we are studying.Now that im complete with my revision and im clear of every questions,Thanks to Walwal,Haha.So i got nothing to do and that is why i blogged.And yes,i brought my laptop along.Hehe.Finally,my elder brother has recovered.Glad to see him in his oldself again.Today he went to his floorball training eventhough he just recovered.Tsktsk.Nevermind,he is one strong guy to me.Hehe.Will be going back soon enough after Walwal finished his revision.I think after this i will grab a book or something.Trust me,when Walwal revised,even a turtle is faster.Haha.Joking Walwal.I swear Walwal is crazy as in still laughing when im actually making fun of Walwal.Haha.Okay.I got to go for now.Will post again at night if im free and not lazy.haha.BYebye Peeps.

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

2:48 PM

Hello(=

Hmm.Okay today.Was woken up by two smses from two fellow classmates telling me that math remedial have been cancelled due to the teacher being sick.Sigh.Okay but geography remedial is still on.So make my way to school leaving my elder brother alone at home.When i reach school,i called him just to make sure if he is okay.He still fast eventhough he is not that well enough.So okay after geography remedial,went to the D&T workshop.Chat with Sharmaine and Syahidah about a lot of things.I missed them a lot.Haha.Stayed until aroung 2.30 like that if im not wrong.Waited for Hayyu.Went home.Went to limbang with Wida and Afifah.Make our way home.Reach home.Elder brother looked better.Im relieved.Hehe.Bath.Went out to study.Then meet my little brother to take the porridge.Went home.Watch tv.Break fast.Study.Watch tv.Now precisely blogging.Listening to songs.Chatted with Syawal,Danialzayin,Faris and Shuk.Okay people.Byebye.Goodnight...

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:14 PM

HELLO(=

Today,first day of fasting month.Lets see.So we are back to the normal routine whereby we have to wake up really early in the morning around 5 plus.I had difficulties in waking up as i slept late last night.Haha.Wash up.Eat a bit.I have no appetite in the morning.Elder brother is sick.He vomit a lot and have stomachache.Oonce he eat,he will throw up.I pity him.Till in the morning,he looked really pale.So mummy brought him to the doctor.As a result,he couldnt fast.He sleep all day.Like he is so weak like that.I never see him like that before.Usually,he will be so energetic.Go to the gym.Go swimming and such.I really pity him.Like seriously.As his little sister,I took care of him like he took care of me when im sick.Hehe.My mum was busy preparing food for break fast later on.So me and little brother tidy up his room and clean the house.After that,me and him study.He is preparing for his PSLE and i am preparing for EOY.After a few hours of study,we took a break and played online games.It was like super fun.Once in awhile,i go back to my childhood.Eventhough we are hungry and thirsty,we didnt feel restless or tired at all.We kept ourselves busy with games and books just to make the time goes by.As soon as you know,time really flies.Haha.So bath.Watch tv.Then went to get the porridge.Its a usual routine too.Went home.Watch tv.And there you go,break fast time.Haha.Till now,im really full.Nothing can go in anymore.Haha.Elder brother still didnt eat anything except to drink water and tea and eat a sandwich.Now he is still asleep at the sofa.Will wake him up later to sleep in his bed.Daddy is also sick.Hmm.Well, tomorrow i have maths and geography remedial.Little brother also having his remedial.Both of us has promised each other that we will study hard on account of our late grandad and of course to grant our parents wish.Okay people.I will stop here.Byebye.(=

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

9:35 PM