this is real, this is me.

Hello

Yes im better now.Im recovered from my flu.My cough is slightly better though.So today,it was rather a fine day for me.Went Johor with Syawal family too.Went to eat at some place which i dont know the name of the stall.Haha.Neither do Syawal.Well,all we have to do is eat right.LoL.Then we went to shop.I bought myself a new dress.Syawal and little brother bought themselves new sandles and shirts.Haha.They are obsessed with the colour PINK!Seriously,everywhere we go,they will like" look there is a pink shirt".Haha.Pathetic.But pink suits them.Dont you know pink is the new black.LOL.So after shopping.Went to buy fruits along the road.Went back home.Sleep in the car along the way.At home,watch tv.Seriously i havent started on my homework.Haha.Dont feel like doing at all.Perhaps tomorrow.Haha.Just now around 8,me and brothers went down to stagmont park to play basketball.I realised i couldnt play as much as i could last time.Sigh.Mummy and daddy came along later on.They played along.Mummy make a joke along the way.Daddy played really funny.Haha.Yes,it has been a long time since i had a good laugh with family and also played some sports together as a family.Went home.Bathed.Now basically im wasting my time on my laptop.Haha.So tomorrow im going to focus and finished my homework.Haha.Okay.I got nothing else to say.Bye(:

Please stop your nonsense.Please.

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:27 PM

Hmm,i guess this post is nothing but a short one.I got no stories today because for the whole day i spent my day lying on my bed with my laptop on my lap and a handphone beside me,texting people.I was down with flu and cough.I was feeling really cold while others were warm.I did have a good rest today.I was bored though.Just lying down and watching movies on my laptop.Luckily,i had some friends to accompany me by their wonderful texts.Now,after hours and hours on my bed,im feeling a lot better now but its hard to breathe with a blocked nose.Im not liking this at all.Tomorrow,im going Johor if im not wrong.Well yah,i guess i will stop here.Byebye.

And to passerby,please get a life and stop bothering me.Did i offend you in some ways which i dont know?In the first place,do i know you?I know myself who i am.So i dont need your ridiculous comments.Please get yourself a hobby or something beside spamming other people tagboard.Like i said on my blog, this is my blog ans i have my say.So if you dont like me or you are not pleased with me,please oh please just go away.I dont want to waste my time on you.

People say that dreams always appear to be the opposite in life.What i dreamt about was like really a great dream.But will it be the opposite in life?Cause i dont want it to happen the opposite way.Seriously.=(

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

11:02 PM

Hello

So today,i spend my time a lot outside of my house.Eventhough i thought of staying and resting at home over the weekend,but i couldnt,can i?Nevermind,i still have tomorrow,monday,tuesday to get my official rest.LOL.But who knows right.Plans and such will always get in my way.Haha.So yah okay.Today,i woke up really early eventhough i really want to wake up slightly late.But i just couldnt sleep.So woke up.Had my breakfast.Watch Cinderella 3: Twist in time at Disneychannel.I find this story/movie really nice.Haha.This would be the second time i watched it.Hehe.Then went for tuition.Studied A maths indices.Gosh.I really dont understand at first.Sounds so complicated.But i get it after a few practices.Went home after 2 hours of studying which make me feel so sleepy and tired.Went out again to my aunt house to collect some things for mum.Went home straight after that.Im a good girl so i dont loiter around.Haha.Went out again to go jogging with bestfriends at CCK stadium.Did some running and jogging.I finally felt the pain after awhile.How am i going to survive 2.4 km run?You tell me.Sigh.Then went to Limbang with Afifah,Farah and Hayyu.Went home after that.Bath.Rest for awhile.Then big brother accompanied me to the doctor with daddy car.He drove me there.Yeah,i love him.Haha.Then went to Al-Azhar to eat my dinner.Big brother treat me.My meal(black pepper chicken and peach milkshake) today cost $10.Haha.And he doesnt even complain abit.Daddy and Mummy came later on by Uncle car.Went home with them.Reached home and finally i could lie on my bed.Haha.It has been a long day.Tiring for me.Sighh.I hope i could have a good sleep and rest tonight.Still,i had a wonderful time with friends.I have to thank my big brother for willing to accompany me and treat me dinner.Though he can be irritating sometimes,he is still the best and i have always love him.Haha.If he see this,i swear he is gonna be speechless.Haha.I want to watch the chinese movie,the wedding of the year.Afifah and i talked about it just now.We though that it havent released yet but it already did.Should tell Afifah tomorrow.Who knows we might be watching it during the holidays.Haha.Daddy plan to go and play bowling on Monday.I think.Okay.I will stop here.Byebye.(:

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:09 PM

Hello.

I hope after i blogged,i could actually go to sleep.Im really tired.Feeling weak.Feeling pain.So yah today.My school celebrated Chinese New Year today.Went to school like usual.There was no haircheck at all.We learnt geography for the first two period.Feeling very cold in class.I find it hard to breathe.I was like gasping for air.Sigh.This is not the first time.Recess was next.Due to this,i didnt go for recess.Then,mr Mazri came into the class for 20 minutes.We head to the hall for the CNY concert after that.The concert was a great one.I tried my best to laugh eventhough it is difficult for me.My class got second for the CNY decorations.My knee was really painful for awhile when i stood up.Then,went to the stadium with friends.I followed them cause i forgot to bring my keys.So yah,soon after that,i went home.My aunt was at my house.So she cooked for chicken porridge.It was nice.That porridge was the first food i have eaten for today.Now im blogging out of boredom and also because i couldnt sleep.I have religious class at night.Most probably i will be going.Im going to miss another 2 hours of Love Blossoms 2.Sighhh.So not fair.There will be no school on monday and tuesday.I guess i would be resting for this two days.I cancelled my plan about going back to LA after what had happened to me recently.Hmmph,i got tuition tomorrow.Sigh.Im so tired.I guess i shall stop here.Okay.Bye.

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

4:15 PM

Hello

Today is rather fine.Afifah didnt came to school today due to fever.Okay.Hmm yah,go to school with friends.First period was mother tongue.Did some letter writing.Next was A maths.But i dont know whether we are studying A maths or E maths.Okay whatever.The thing is that i leart something right?Haha.Okay.Then it was physics.This lessons was a funny one.Haha.Finally its recess.I had recess with Syahidah and Weiqi.It kind of not fair that me,Syahidah,Sharmaine couldnt have the same recess time even for a day in a week.Sighh.POA was next.It was okay.Then it geography.Since Mdm Zan is on leave for a couple of weeks to take care of her mum,a new teacher came. For the half an hour period,We did nothing but to talk about ghosts stories in school and such.Then its CME.Nothing to talk about.After school,me and wida made our way to Afifah house to pass her homeworks to her.Before that,we bought ourself sweet talk drinks.I bought peach milkshake.I swear it is really nice.I bought it also yesterday.I find it nice so i bought it again today.Haha.So meet Afifah at her playground.Chatted with her for awhile.She began laughing and such.I miss her laughters and her participation in class.Haha.Okay.Then we went home.I was alone at home.So i lie down on my bed.I accidentally fall asleep.Haha.I guess i was too tired to even eat.Haha.Woken up by the ringtone of my handphone.Bath.I went out to have my dinner with Syawal.Went home after that.Completed my homework.Pack my bag and now im blogging.I realised every now and then in class,i kept laughing and laughing over silly things.Only wida know how i behave in class.Haha.She is really hilarious.I can die of laughing if i were to stay wth 24 hours.Haha.Well yah,i think life for me is better eventhough im rather confuse with the way things are now.Okay.Suddenly i felt really tired now.Haha.Okay.Byeee(:

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

9:36 PM

Hello

Okay,i didnt post yesterday.Haha.The reason is because my head was spinning and there was a slight fever.Therefore,i went to sleep earlier.Hehe.Now,im a lot better.Probably because of the medicine i ate.Yeap,surprising.Now,im a lot better in eating my medicine.Haha.Pathetic.Nothing much happen though yesterday.I have to thank Afifah for willing to wait for me.So okay today!LoL.So woke up in the morning.Mama ask me if i want to go to school or not.I thought of not going but i feel fine and i do not want to miss any lessons.Haha.So yeap i went.Before meeting the rest,i went to fetch my niece under my block.As she will be staying at my house.It is her birthday anyway.Haha.So okay,went to school.First period was english.I forgot to bring a dictionary.I forgot a lot of things today.Haha.Getting old already.Haha.NO!Okay,yah during english i laughed alot with Wida.Keep disturbing her for no reasons.Haha.Then it was PE.Did shotput and played basketball too.During this period,i wasnt feeling quite happy lah.Told Afifah about it.Hmm,okay.Yah after that POA.Then Physics.Began to pick up my mood back.Haha.Recess was next.Same recess as NOR SHARMAINE MARLEHA.Hahaha.So yah eat with her.Then Mother tongue.A maths was next.Again this period i laughed a lot.Haha.All Wida fault.Haha.I have Npcc meeting after that.But it was not a meeting actually.Haha.Syahidah went home alone as both me and Afifah have cca to attend to.Sorry Syahidah.This few days i never went home with her.But i did went to school with her and be with her whenever its mother tongue.So sad!Haha.So waited for Afifah.Chatted with Weiqi and Yusoff.Saw Ahmad.Gave him a smile and a hi-5.Hahaha.Then went home.Something happened when me and Afifah were going home.Haha.But im not going to tell it here.Hahahah.So reached home.Bath.Then cousins,aunts,uncles came to my house to celebrate my niece birthday.Syawal,Amran,Shafiz came too.Had cake and a lot of other nice food that my mama cook.Haha.My niece was very happy.She turn a year old.She is so cute when she open her present.I took a couple of pictures of her.But i seemed to misplace my USB port.Hahaha.Silly me.I did my malay homework right after that.I didnt do the rest cause i forgotten to bring the books home.Silly right?Haha.Im going to rush to finish my homework tomorrow.Haha.Okay.I have nothing to say.Haha.Okay byee!(:

Happy Birthday Dinie Aqasha!Hope you like the present from me and Syawal.((:

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

9:31 PM

Hello.

First of all,i think i just post everyday of this week.Haha.Okay.Put that away.Today.Basically,there is nothing interesting that happened.Like i said in the previous post that i will be studying today.Yes i did.Woke in the morning.Had breakfast.Went out first to fetch nephew and niece under my block.Yeap,both my Danial Ashriq and Dinie Aqasha.They stayed at my house today as their parents have to go to Johor for work.Therefore,i invited Kak Ayuni and Kak Reen over to my place to keep an eye on them while im studying.My brothers cant be helped.Haha.So i studied and finished my homework for two hours.Played with them for one and half hours.Studied again for another 2 hours.Haha.Still,i thought its just a test.Why am i studying so hard?Haha.Then i played with them until both of them went home.Soon after dinner,my cousins went home too.I continued to study after that.I finally finished revising at nine.Im hoping to get another A for this test.Pray hard!Haha.I guess i only cared about maths more.Hahaha.There is school tomorrow.Yet,i felt as though i didnt have enough rest during the weekends with all this homeworks and tests going on.Hmm..okay..bye!(:

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:06 PM

Hello.

Hmmph..its Saturday today.I find today's day rather short.Although its weekend,i felt as though it is weekday.Haha.I forgot to tell you about this week yesterday.So yah,i find this week more fun than the last week.Perhaps because im getting use to my Secondary three life now.So okay,moving on.Today,i woke up early cause i thought today was friday.I woke up at 7 and thought that i was late.Quickly get up from my bed.Found out that little brother was still in bed and parents are out.Check my handphone.The day say SATURDAY!Hahaha.Silly me.So since i already woke up and couldnt go back to sleep,i bathed and then continue to read my book while waiting for my breakfast.I finished the book even before my parents came back with my breakfast.Haha.After breakfast,went for tuition.Had a 3 hour of maths just because i want to prepare for my A maths test.Yet,im still not confident enough.Haha.After that,i went out.Came back after that and finished up my Chemistry homework.But unfortunately,i dont understand a single bit of that chapter.I dont know how to do some questions.Oh my god.I dont want to flunk my chemistry man.I need tuition.Somebody helppppp!Haha.Then i went out with family to have dinner at IMM.Bought myself another outing clothes.Hehe.Went home.Watch tv.Yup thats all.For the whole of tomorrow,im going to study my A maths and finished up all my homework.Hope i can do it without lazing around.Haha.Currently im addicted to songs sang by Teresa Tseng and Kelvin Chen(spellings...dots!).Yup they are chinese songs.Very nice ones in fact.Hahahah.Okay..i shall post again tomorrow.Bye(:

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:33 PM

Hello

Another post for today.I just came back from my religious class.Yeah im tired and i really want to sleep but i just cant help it but to post.Haha.Silly me.Okay today.Quite a short day.Cause its the usual friday.Haha.Start the day with chemistry lessons.E maths was next.We had complete the Matrices topic and Mr Mazri told us that some was A maths one.Therefore,topic on Matrices from A maths textbook is already covered.That was fast.Haha.Next was POA.The teacher start the lessons by asking us questions on the topics that was covered in the last lessons.Very troublesome.Luckily i wasnt pick.I count myself lucky for today.Haha.Then recess.Had recess with Afifah,Wida,Hayyu,Farah and Nadia today as Weiqi had left the class for the secondary one orientation camp.Then,it was A maths.Okay lah but abit confusing.There will be A maths test on monday.So lets Panic!Haha.After that,went to KFC with Afifah,Syahidah,Sharmaine and Wida.Shared my food with Afifah and Sharmaine.I had to forced Sharmaine to eat.Hehe.Then went back to school.Changed to full uniform.Had the second class drill badge for the others.I ended up having a slight sore throat due to shouting the timing.Haha.Then had a camp dicussions.Will be having another one on Tuesday after school.Dismissal.Went home with Afifah.Reached home.Bath.Changed.Went to religious class.It was okay.But i was rather sleepy.Luckily my Amit and Syawal entertained me by texting me.Hehe.Amit is so sweet.Hahaha.Went home with Wida and Hayyu.Drank my soya bean milk before blogging here.Im having tuition tomorrow.Sighhh.Im also going out tmr.Yayyy.Haha.Okay..Byebyebyebye.

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:47 PM

Hello

Yeah,another great day but there is one minor part of the day which i wish it didnt occured to me today.So yesterday,i actually slept over at kak ayuni house.So i woke up early.And walk slowly to the bus stop.Haha.Went to school.First period was mother tongue.It was okay.I was rather happy in the morning.Only some know why.Hehe.Then it was POA.I understand Chapter 2 more than Chapter 1.Then CME.Boring okay.Recess.Accompanied Afifah and Weiqi to the canteen.I was fasting again.Then it was english.Followed by a period of chemistry.Lastly,it was A maths.After that,i thought that i could just go home straight but i have to help in the CNY decorations as i was one of the people in the commity.Sabo by mervyn.Haha.Hayyu and Farah helped me.Thanks.They went home earlier than me.Although the deco have not yet to be completed,we just go home cause its already late.I went home alone.Reach home.I was really exhausted.Bath.Rest.Did my chemistry homework.Then break fast.I eat light cause my mama didnt cook so many and i was not that hungry after all.After that,i watch my chinese show.Polished my boots.Prepare my npcc uniform.Packed my bag.Now im just so bored.Thinking of reading my POA notes before going to sleep.Haha.Okay byeee.(:

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

9:53 PM

Hello

Haha.Okay,I actually dont know what to post.But just so you know im over the moon today.LOL.Firstly,i had fun during P.E lessons.Secondly,i had a huge laughter with my friends.Thirdly,Im happy because of my test results.Fourthly,i had a wonderful dinner with Syawal and the rest.Last but not least,i managed to solve something which make me really really happy.Hahaha.And my back and knee hurts alot now.I think its due to P.E.Shall bear with it lah okay.Haha.I finally finished my A maths homework.After finishing my homework,i lie down on my bed, take out my book and then i read.I am coming to the end of the book.This book is super duper nice okay.LOL.Okay.Byeeeeeeeeeeeee.=D

~told ya im random..see my dumb post.RANDOM!Hahaha.

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

9:50 PM

Hello

I guess i got nothing to do so im blogging.Haha.Lame.Okay.Today.I can say today is much a better day for me.Thanks to Afifah,Wida and Syahidah for making laugh and laugh and laugh the whole day.So went to school with them.First period A maths.Learn new things.I got confused at first but i guess im okay with it now.Next was POA.Played a quiz game in groups of 4.Although i did not memorised everything,i did get some correct.I guess its okay for a person like me who have troubles in POA.Haha.Then it was social studies.Teacher told us ghost stories.Haha.Recess.Again i was fasting so yah.Haha.Mother tongue was okay i guess.Last but not least,it was geography.Then end of school.But i didnt went home cause i forgot to bring my house keys.Yup,im a forgetful person.Luckily,Afifah got her redcross training.Therefore,i could accompanied her.Haha.While waiting for her redcross thingy to start, Afifah and me waited in class.We also thought of going greenridge but it was raining so yah plan was cancelled.Haha.So we chatted in class.I told her everything.Haha.Laugh and laugh and laugh with her.Seriously,she was hilarious.Haha.Andandand,seriously i was shivering in class.LOL.Soon,it was time for her to fall in.So while waiting for her,i did my homework with Zalilah.So im not alone lah.Haha.Went home with Afifah after that.Accompanied her to the shop first.Bid goodbyes.Reached home.Bath.Finally,time for my break fast.Eat while watching Love Blossom 2.Haha.Did my homework after that.Packed my bag.Now im blogging.Damn,im shivering and sneezing.Haha.Im pathetic lah.Okay i shall end here.Byeeeee.(:

You want it to be this way..fine.Go ahead.I dont care.I wont let you ruin my day or mood.

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

9:18 PM

Hello

Today was not as bad as i think it will be.Firstly,it is because my bag is not heavy at all.Secondly,my laughters make me forget my troubles today.So okay,went to school.Finally,i saw my cousin(Nasriyah cousins too) which was in the same school as me at the lrt platform.Avoid some circumstances in school.First period Social Studies.It was okay.Next E maths.Test.It was okay.Not so difficult.I didnt complete one question cause i dont know how to do and i dont have time to do it.Seriously,i hope i pass this test.Next was physics.Okay also.Had some laughters with new classmates.Recess.I was fasting so i did not eat anything.Three period of english was next.Did some journal writing and some activities on workbook.Went to watch the O levels thingy.I accompanied Syahidah.The others went off already.Instead they waited for me at library.Went home after that.I was seriously tired and restless.I put my bag.Switch on my laptop while lying on my bed.I fell asleep for while.By the time i woke up,it was already 6.30.So i bath.Then i break fast.Watch tv.Did my POA homework but leave some questions blank as i just dont know how to do it.That is all for today.Hoping for another good day tomorrow.I hope.Although it has not been raining for a while already,yet im feeling cold.I keep shivering wherever i am.Be it in my room,living room or even the toilet.Sounds pathetic but yah.I keep having flu at night.This is rather irritating.I want to sleep but i cant.I guess i shall end here.Bye.

I dont know what to say to you anymore.I dont feel like seeing you but we just happened to be in the same school.Im having thoughts of going to there again.But i just cant bear to leave my friends and i dont want make this decision just because of you.

im going crazy with all this unimportant informations in my head!!!

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:13 PM

Hello.

Im not in the mood right now or should i say since morning but i just feel like blogging out of blue.Again my weekend is rather boring.Sunday was suppose to be a wonderful day for me.Usually it happened.But today,somebody just have to ruin my mood.Whats more its in the morning whereby usually i go for a jog and just enjoy the fresh air.But i didnt do it today.I also skipped my breakfast cause i just dont have the appetite.Instead of laughing out loud with my brother when watching tv,i locked myself in my room,trying to study again for my test and also to keep my mind off everything that had happened.Luckily,my parents were not at home or they will be suspicious of their daughter unusual behaviour on Sunday.I didnt eat anything for lunch either.Im just concentrating on my maths.I know its pathetic but yah thats me.Other than this,my cousins came to my house and accompany me cause i was alone.Now i have just finished my revision on maths.Have yet to pack my bag.I dont have the mood to go to school.And also school ends an hour early tmr due to the release of o levels result.Goodluck to my secondary four friends.Yah okay bye.

Im so disappointed in you.Just how could you do that?I dont mind you joking around with me but please have your limits.Today you have gone way beyond your limit.I dont know what to say to you anymore.I dont even know if im angry at you or not.You are my best friend and....
This is so unexpected.*Tears.*

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

8:33 PM

Hello.

Yah okay.Today i did nothing much except to study for the upcoming test.I have yet to do my homework.I went tuition.I went out with Syawal and his niece,Fazlin.His niece was a certainly cute little girl.She was rather very pampered to Syawal just like my nephew,Danial Ashriq.LOL.Then meet Kak Ayuni and Kak Reen at Lot one.I wanted to buy my physics workbook cause i bought the wrong book the other day.But just couldnt find the book and also i didnt wrote my name on the paper which will let my teacher know how many people wants him to order the books for.Im so dead.Yah okay,that is all i did for today.Sian i know.My muscles are aching for no reasons or is it because of yesterday training.Okay,im done.Its short i know.Byee.

I just cant believe that you told that person when you actually say you wouldnt.I guess im just a fool to actually believe your words.In the first place,i shouldnt have told you.I am so angry at you.But i sit down and will not do anything.Why?Because i dont want to hurt you.Im not that heartless.Im very sad,disappointed,angry.If anybody blames me,trust me..its all because of YOU!I will never ever tell you again about anything......cause you can never be trusted.

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:47 PM

Hello.

Finally im blogging.And yup its finally the end of the week.I can finally rest from carrying such heavy bag.So yah this week,i have been going through a lot of up and down.Yah,although i feel that it is seriously different this year,i still have to move on and stop living in the past.What choice do i left with?I have been spending a quality of time with Syahidah and Sharmaine too when we go to school and home together.Yes when we are together,we will just talk and laugh and laugh and laugh.Simply we just keep laughing.I have also been going to recess with weiqi.Okay,why am i telling you this?Haha.Okay so i will continue what happened today.So today,went to school earlier than usual cause we wanted to do maths.Do this and that.Explain this and that.Assembly.First period,geography.I got Mdm Zan for my geography teacher and that is great.Haha.So yah,then recess.Didnt eat.Finish up my A maths homework.A maths was next.Followed by POA.Seriously,i just dont understand a single thing about POA.The teacher ask we all to copy down the notes and while copying,she talk.I just cant catch up with her words.She just keep going on and on.Very frustrating.I really wished to understand POA.I hope i could understand it soon.Please.After that was E maths.E maths was okay but confusing.There is a test on matrices next monday.Gosh!Okay,moving on.After school,went KFC with Afifah,Syahidah,Sharmaine and Hayyu.Ahmad keep disturbing us in taking our food.Haha.Same old Ahmad.Although while eating,something just distract my mind that caused my friends to ask "are you okay?".Yah so went back to school for npcc.There is a test today.A test which i failed last time.So took it today with not so many mistakes.Went home with Afifah,Hayyu and Farah.Chatted with them.It has been a long time since i had a long conversation with every one of them.Sigh.Reached home.Bath.Change and off i went to my religious class.Again i missed my chinese show,Love blossom 2,which was also shown for 2 hours.Not fair lah.Why must i always missed the best part one?Okay pathetic.So yah,basically i have nothing more to say.Im tired.My shoulders and neck is very painful due to my heavy bag which i carried EVERYDAY! No use complaining.Nothing will change.Haha.Okay byeee.

I feel really glad that you are willing to tell me that.I felt happy when i talk to you.You are still as important as ever to me and nothing will ever change this fact no matter how things change now.

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

11:16 PM

Hello

Yeap.Im not obeying my parents' "rule".Haha.I just cant get to sleep yet.So i went to switch on my laptop.So yah okay,today right i went to school with my little brother.Yeap and i just know something.Haha.Not mentioning it here.So then we went our separate ways after reaching Lot 1.Waited for Hayyu and Afifah at lrt.Meet Sharmaine and Hafidz at Jelapang lrt.Went up and down the staircase today.Haha.Assemble at parade square.Went up with Syahidah and Sharmaine.Haha.This one also want to tell.Haha.Haiya.Okay so yah first period was english.Did comprehension.P.E was next.Started to feel a little bit of (i dont like to feel) feeling.Haha.POA was next.Seriously i dont get what is the teacher is trying to say.But whatever it is,i have to try my best to understand no matter what it takes.Haha.Then physics,okay funny teacher yet a little bit of insane teacher.Haha.But im sure he will make the class interesting.I hope.(pray hard).Haha.Recess.Found out that Sharmaine recess was same as mine.So me and Weiqi had recess with Dina and Sharmaine.I didnt eat as usual.Then,it was mother tongue.Sadly,very sadly,Syahidah was not in the same class as me.Sharmaine was.I was like really sad lah.I was like really hoping to get into the same class as syahidah.But my wish or hope was not granted.After mother tongue,i get to walk up to class with her.So i started to tell everything to her.Haha.okay i miss doing that.A maths was seriously confusing me.But now after revising it again,i get it already.Went home with Syahidah and the rest.I thought of waiting for Afifah but i have tuition.Reach home.Did homework and revision.Bath.Tuition.Finished my homework.Eat my late dinner.Finally,i had a rest for an hour only.After that,i studied again till 10.Now im basically doing nothing except to blog.Im really tired this few days.My bag is heavy almost everyday.Im tired of carrying my bag.Im tired of going up and down the staircase.Im tired of feeling lonely.Im tired of feeling tired man!Haiyyaaa.Its only the third day of school and im complaining like hell.Okay fina,i shall bear with it.Hahaha.Lame lah me.Okay.Im already feeling sleepy.So goodnight everybody.

To him:
Please be strong and overcome this.You need to move on.Okay?Dont be sad anymore.

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:30 PM

Hello.

A quick post shall do for today.Im using this laptop secretly.Duh,cause im in my room.So yah.Today,went to school.Social studies was okay.So was chemistry.I get to know 2 more new teachers.Had recess with Weiqi.First time.E maths was next.Copied the wrong notes on the wrong book.Silly me.Then,english.Did my normal writing on the holidays.Lifeskill.Mervyn sabo me in doing the chinese new year decorations with and other four more people.Haha.After that,bid goodbyes to friends and i make my way to canteen.Sharmaine accompanied me for awhile.Thanks Sharmaine.Teach Weiqi.Then by four,Sharmaine had to go home.I seriously thanked her for willing to accompany me.Haha.I chatted with Weiqi,Suhardi and Steed.Yeap i make new friends.Haha.Cheers for me.Haha.OKay.Lame.Then i went home alone.Reach home.Did some studying.Bath.Dinner.Watch chinese shows for three straight hours!Haha.Pack my bag.Again its heavy.Poor thing lah me.Haha.Okay.I want to sleep.Byebye.(:

Labels: say all you want behind me cause i dont care at all(exclamation marks)

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:19 PM

Hello.

Okay.Im not feeling rather myself today.Will just tell you about what had happened today.I did nothing today but to finish my A maths homework.I also went to Lot One to buy my POA stuffs.Went library to borrow some books.Eventhough i know i wont have time to read,i just think as though it is something to do to distract my mind after what is happening right now.I sounded really pathetic.Went home.My life is rather boring,dont you think?Actually,i dont feel like blogging.The reason im blogging because i will not blog often on weekdays.Tomorrow,there is school.Seriously,i still dont have the mood to go to school yet.Pack my bag.Very heavy.I just have to bear it dont i?I will be staying back tomorrow to teach Weiqi on A maths lesson that she missed the other day.I have nothing more to say.....

You deceived me.You are a liar.I thought you actually cared.I was so wrong.You cared for me because you pitied me.Just so you know,i dont need your sympathy,YOU LIAR!
I actually look forward to everything just because of you.But you changed over the holidays.Now i dont feel rather happy for anything all because of you.You dont have to pretend that you care anymore cause i know your true colours already.I feel like shouting in front of your face but why should i ever waste my time on you?You _ _ _ _ _!!!

Labels: you are one big liar

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

9:30 PM

Hello

Yep.First day of school.I guess it was okay.Went to school with friends.Meet Sharmaine at traffic light.The bell already rang when we reached.So just sit down.Search around for Syahidah or others.I didnt saw Syahidah.Saw Ahmad so we hi-5!Haha.Zahin changed specs.Afifah too.First thing we did after national athem was spOt check.Lucky i wasnt caught.Haha.So went up to class and sit beside Weiqi.My form teacher is Mr Mazri.He was also my A maths and E maths teacher.After feeling up some forms,we have to rearrange our seating arrangement so yeah i didnt get to sit with Weiqi.My partner was Wida.Okaylah.So he talk a little bit about our O levels and such.After that was recess.Passed by Syahidah class.Searched for her but she didnt came.How sad.Didnt eat or drink during recess.I felt different now without Syahidah and Sharmaine during recess.I will get used to it soon.I think.So after recess,we did some A maths.Yes,we studied on the first day..A maths was okay.Now is easy.Later in the year will be much more difficult.We were also given homework n the first day.Yes again.Haha.Surprising but yah.Haha.Then POA.The teacher,Mrs Goh only talked about the career for POA.Then E maths.Okay also.No homework for E maths.In class,I ended up getting gastrics pains for not eating during recess.I felt better after class.Haha.Then end of school.Npcc meeting.Waited for friends to buy their books.I chatted with Dina and Fazira.I miss them.Haha.Walk here and there.Finally i sit with Afifah and Syahirah.After that,accompany Farah to Lot 1.Waited for Sahida outside the bank with Afifah.So we chatted.Okay,she was being super funny today.Then went home.Bath and change.Went out after that.Then,religious class.At first,we thought it was cancelled due to the small fire in the air conditioner something like that.Then waited for awhile.It was okay already.So lesson was like normal except there was no air con.Yeap..hot.Haha.Then went home.Change and now blogging.Today i missed my chinese shows.My mummy told me that the love blossom 2 was being showed for 2 hours.Then i was like.."sian lah..cannot see"..Haha.Yeah im being pathetic over a chinese show.Haha.Okay.Im tired now and i want to sleep can?Haha.Ookay lorr.Byebye.(:

Labels: i told you cause i trust you too

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:46 PM

Happy New Year to EVERYONE!

Seriously,i dont feel like blogging about what had happened yesterday.Just a thanks to Syawal,Kak Ayuni,Kak Reen,Amran and Shafiz for helping me out.

2008 is already part of our past.My wish was not granted in slowing down the time.It is new year and i dont know whether i should be happy or not.There is too much memories in 2008 that it hurts me to leave it just like that.There are some memories whereby i should forget and there is some memories whereby i should always remember it.2008 has been a memorable year for me.It is the year when i became super good friends with Syahidah and Sharmaine.Now i regret for not knowing them earlier.They gave me such wonderful time when we are together.These are such memories that i DO NOT want to forget.They teach me something that i would never forget.I dont care what other people say about them cause to me they are just the best.They never let me down before.Its a pity that we couldnt continue to share more memories together this year,2009.It is all because we are not in the same class.It is not a gurantee that we will be in the same mother tongue which i really hope we do.2008 has also been a nightmare to me at times but whatever it is Syahidah and Sharmaine help me go through it.I will miss a lot of things in 2008.I will miss being around Syahidah and Sharmaine.I will miss joking around with them.I will miss gossiping with them.I will miss the vulgarities from Sharmaine and Syahidah.I will miss Sharmaine singing in class.I will miss Syahidah complaints.I will miss studying with them.I will miss eating with them in class.I will miss the way we keep running and panicking when the DM is near us.I will miss the noise that Amit,Weijun and Abbas make almost everyday behind me.I will miss the hi-5 that i give to Ahmad.I will miss the handshake that i make with Azry.I will miss my tutees,Dina and Fazira.I will miss sharing my food with the boys.I will miss my 2e5 and the friends that i have known for two years.There is alot more to be missed by me.I just cant fit all of it here.Simple say,i just cant bear to leave 2008.

2009 is going to be a question mark for me.I dont know what is going to happen to me.I keep relying on Syahidah and Sharmaine last year.Now that they are not going to be by my side in class,recess or whatever,i will be clueless.I hope that i can go through this all by myself.Still,i really wish that they can continue be by my side forever.But i know it is impossible.But whatever it is,i will still have to move on and do my very best for 2009.

New year resolutions.

1)Be stronger.
2)Study really really hard.
3)Be a good daughter,friend,cousin,sister to everyone.
4)Be myself and not to let others ruin my life.

You people should have new year resolution too.I hope you people can fulfill your new year resolution too.Happy 2009 everybody.(:

Labels: 2009-sad or happy?

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

11:08 AM