this is real, this is me.

Hello.

Im bored so i decided to blog.Okay.My weekend was okayy.Finally,had a good sleep.Daddy bought me my contact lens.Well,i did contribute some of my money to buy it.Heh.But i didnt managed to buy my sandal cause nothing caught my eyes.Sigh.Monday was also okay.Had a really a good day with Wida in class.After days without her in class,it was really boring and lonely.Finally,she came.Yey.Haha.So today..ermm,how do i describe today..okay and not okay?Yup thats it.Haha.Started the day with A maths.3 periods.Followed by POA and Social Studies.Recess.Ate with Dina and Marleha.Heh.Went for mother tongue.Last but not least,we had geography.We had A maths test after school.The test was not that easy or difficult.But i know im not going to get an A for it.And yesterday,I studied so hard for the chapter Logarithms but not a question on it came out.Ugh!Haha.After the test,went home.Bought ourselves a ice blended drinks.I bought blueberry ice blended.It was sour.I regret buying it.Had a nap just for like 15 minutes.I was really tired today.I had no idea why.Wida say im lack of vitamins.I told her that the only vitamins that i ate before and loved it is actually the robot vitamins and this vitamins is for young kids.Haha.How i wished im young again so that i could eat that vitamin again.Haha.Tomorrow is wednesday.Its my daddy birthday and also its April fools day.I also dont have my npdp training tomorrow or friday.Great.Will be joining the parade in school on friday instead.Okay i guess i have typed long enough.

Have a good day.(:

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

7:04 PM

Hello.

Hmm,today was fine.Except for the weird weather.So went to school early with my sprained ankle.Climb up the staircase painfully.Haha.Completed my assignments.Sort of.Mother tongue was the first period.Followed by mathematics and physics.Had Recess with Syahidah.POA was next.I received my test paper.Somehow i was shocked upon the results because i didnt expect that i would pass.But whatever it is,Alhamdulilah that i passed.Then it was geography and last but not least CME.After school,the malay students who signed up the overseas trip was supposed to meet our teacher at malay room.The results was out.I get to go.Syahidah,Sharmaine,Afifah and the rest got to go too.I was overjoyed.Heh.After that,we went to Lot 1.Went to tuition.I managed to watch American Idol before doing my homeworks.I have to agree with Syahidah that Adam Lambert is hot.Today,he changed his looks and sang very nicely.All the judges including Simon commented that his performance was the best.Hehe.After this,will be going to Uncle house.Will be sleeping over there too.There is parade tomorrow.Feel like not going but i have no choice!Sighh.Yeah.Thats all.And oh yahh,My sandals is gone!Somehow it has been stolen.This is so pathetic.Among all the shoes outside and my one had to stolen.Now i have no more footwear.Ughh.Got to ask daddy to buy me a new one.Haha.I hate that somebody who stole my sandals.Okay.Im done.Byebye readers.(:

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

8:37 PM

I find that im becoming more and more forgetful as days goes by.Today,i forgot to bring back back my POA and Mathematics textbook.So i cant do my homework.Sigh.Luckily,daddy is sending me tomorrow so im going to reach early and i will do my homework.So today was a better day.But my partner,Wida, did not came to school and i was absolutely quiet and it was boring too.Every lesson is fine.I almost fell asleep during SS.Almost.Not totally sleep.I left class early today cause i got annual parade.Me,Sec 2 girls and leha made our way to Fajar Sec.Went to HTA.It was raining.So our training was held in the shelter.Sir Rahimi gave me and the others(the reserved team) some motivational speech.Well,Sir Rahimi is indeed a good guy.Better than the others.Seriously he is nice.Before going home,leha,me and syazirah crapped a lot and i think i was the slow one.Get what i mean?If you dont,then forget it.Heh heh.I sprained my ankle.I dont know how it happened but it is painful.Im hoping it to be better by tomorrow.Well thats it for today.Night readers.(:

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

9:55 PM

I know it has been some time since i blogged.Sorry.I hardly have time to blog nowadays.My holidays was not the holiday i expected it to be.It was a busy holiday.Had classes and cca the whole week.Had to complete the stacks of homework.Had to go overseas.In the blink of an eye,the holidays were over.I didnt have time to rest at all.Okay,today.In the morning,Syahidah came today.She didnt yesterday cause she was sick.I miss her so much during the holidays and also i was scared that i didnt get to see her again.Well Sharmaine's prayers were fulfilled so here i am.Okay so,had english for the first period.I realised that im beginning to like or love english more and more.Its kind of weird for me but hey english is the most important subject right?We got to love it if you want to pass.P.E was next but it was a free period for us since the teacher did not came.It started raining and i was shivering.I closed my eyes for about 5 minutes after completing all my assignments.I wanted to sleep but i was woken up the thunder.How sad.POA was next.Im having trouble in my POA.Need help.Anybody?Learn about inertia for physics.I need help in my physics too or perhaps for my both sciences?Recess was next.I didnt eat and i dont planned to go down to the canteen too cause it was seriously very cold.But Sharmaine somehow forced me to go down with her and Dina.Okay for bestfriend's sake,i went down.For mother tongue,i did some article reading.I was asked to read.My voice was seriously funny.I think its also been awhile since i've read a malay article.Then it was maths.Left the class 15 minutes earlier cause i have npcc.Nothing to say about the trip.It was okay.The lame part is that weiqi started calling me setoh and i started calling her hazirah.It was supposed to be the other way round but..i dont know how it happened.Thats all i guess.I will make an effort to post more often.Takecare everybody.

I closed my eyes for a little while.I saw you.But when i opened my eyes,you were gone.I cried when i could not find you.I want to sleep forever so that i could see you for a little more longer.Im starting to hallucinate.Does this makes me crazy?

Please stop staring at me for no reasons.You creep me out.If you got problem with me,you speak out.Dont stare.

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

7:48 PM

Hello.

First of all,i apologised for the lack of updates.Like i mentioned in the latest post,this week was a hectic week for me because of the tests.Well,now all of the test is over now.Thank God.However,i dont gurantee i will pass for some of the papers but im just hoping for the best.Other than the tests,school for me is not so good.I dont know why but i just feel that things are not in place right now.Everything is just so different.That is how i feel eveytime im in school.But thank goodness,Syahidah and Sharmaine are always there to change how i feel about the day.I guess that is all for this week.Nothing interesting actually.I got my result slip yesterday.I dont know how to describe.My mummy say it was not bad.But to me it is.I could see such a difference in my performance.Sigh.Over what had happened a month ago,i should know why the drop in my result.Sigh.

Tomorrow is my school sport day.Im glad that sir say i do not need to do the duty at the very last minute.Im happy that i get to spend the day with Syahidah.Unlike last year,i had to spend the day,marshalling.On the other hand,Sharmaine had to run for cca 4x100m event.I pitied her.After the event,i will be having my annual parade training tomorrow.Another Sigh.After tomorrow,it will mark the end of term 1.Our 1 week break is here.However for me,i will busy for the whole week.Sigh.

For the one week break,we were given piles of homework to be completed.When I came back home from school just now,i did some.After awhile,i put it all away.Then i found that my room was seriously in a mess.Clothes to be pack on my bed.Books on my bed.Bags and luggage on the floor.USB ports all over my desk.Song sheets all over laptop.Therefore,i took the time to clean everything up.I was surprised that i managed to clean everything in an hour and a half.I fell asleep after that.I guess i was tired.Well now,im wide awake.A lot of things have yet to be done.Well i guess thats it for now.Bye.

To my bestfriend.
I do silly things cause i was frustrated about myself and about the things and people around me.Im sorry if you are worried.Im happy to know you are always there for me through ups and downs.You are the one who always entertain my lame jokes.Sometimes,i feel lonely without you around cause nobody treat me like the way you do.Thank you so much.Though i dont know my real decision,whatever it is,you will forever be my bestfriend who is really special.Ily bestfriend.

Its been one month.I still can't accept fact somehow.I feel hopeless without you.My life has change thoroughly.I miss all those times.I just..dont believe this.I tried to be strong but somehow i got no strength to do that.You were my strength but now...
I just wish this did not happened...imy.Sobs.

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

9:05 PM

Hello

Finally im updating this blog.I guess my time is occupied with tons of homeworks and preparation for tests until i do not have enough time to use my laptop.Okay,will tell you about Secondary 1 Npcc Orientation Camp which was held at school on Friday to Saturday.At last,after weeks of preparation,we all could finally sigh with relief that all of this is over.As all the secondary 3 know that this camp is part of the Sergeant Promotion Test.The camp is a smooth one but not all of us is guranteed to be promoted.That is what we are worried about.Me too.But we all did a good job as this is our first attempt.This is my first time being an NCO and a group leader.It was not easy for to project my voice to control my group.However,my group,Group 1 have given a full cooperation throughout the camp, and i thanked them a lot.First day of the camp, Sharmaine and I came slightly late than everyone cause we got training at HTA.I must say the night walk was all of the secondary 1 cadets favourites.I lead my two campers who were blindfolded around the school.Mades jokes with them.Including Sharmaine And Ssgt Hakiim.We didnt had a good night.Had 2 hours of sleep only.It was cold.But at least we get some sleep.Some of our cadets didnt get to sleep for even two hours.Second day was a tiring one.PT was a successful one although the NCOs was the more enthusiastic than the secondary ones.Had static drills with them.Was amazed how fast my group learn the drills.Last but not least,my amazing race.It was 4 hours walk around Bukit Panjang.Along the way,it was raining.Luckily it was raining cats and dogs.I've to keep shouting,"Group one,where's your two rows?","Group one,dont walk too fast.","Group one,stop.","Group one,drink up","Group one,is everyone okay?" over and over again.Despite the rain and being tired,Group 1 still managed to complete all and reach school on time.My feet were sore after the race.We did the last preparation from the NE act.I did talk to my group about something.We played true and dare.Then it was time for them to act out.I was proud of my group and this was all a last minute plan.Then the prize giving ceremony.Congratulations to both best female and male campers.The best female camper was Azuin.She was from my group.Im glad that she became the best camper and i do see potentials in her.Great Job,Azuin.I got see comments from my campers about me.I thanked them too for saying all that about me.Bid goodbyes to them.The secondary threes had our debrief.Pack up and we went home.As soon as i reach home,took a shower and slept on my comfy bed.I slept throughout the night without a disturbance.

Today, i was glad that i didn have a fever.But i have muscle pain at both of my thighs and feets.Completed all my assignments.I slept again for half an hour while watching tv.Had my dinner outside with family.Had funny conversations with brothers.

At the restaurant,
Elder brother was doing some lame and funny things to me and little brother.
We both looked at each other.
Me:No wonder i see a big L on your forehead(sarcism).
Elder bro:Huh?What?L?
Me:Yah,LAME.
Elder bro: Not L lah.H....Handsome.
Me:(silence).Rolled eyes.
Haha.My elder brother is so lame.

At the shopping mall.
Elder want to buy a cologne for himself.So he ask me.
Elder brother: Zirah,Smell this.Nice?
Me:Yup.(wide smile)
Daddy:Why ask adek?
Elder brother:Cause she is a girl and she know best.
Me:Heh heh.
Little brother: Kak,choose for me.
Me: What about this?I think its perfect for you.(showing him the adidas perfume for girls that i wore)
Little brother: (sad face)
Elder brother: ( laughing out loud.)
Yeah,my brothers are fun to around with.

Went home.Elder brother drove the car.He have been driving me to school too sometimes.Tomorrow he will start working as part of his attachment thingy.Therefore,i dont think he will be sending me to school anymore.Tomorrow will also be the start of the last week of the term and im having 4 test,3 days in a row.Sighh.I wonder why.Sports day is also coming and i dont know whether i want to be the marshall or not.Still thinking.I will also miss Kranji Primary school sports day too again!!It is because the training in HTA.Im thinking of not going but im having second thoughts.Oh I dont know.There is still so many decisions to make and so little time.Sigh...

Test coming up:
Tuesday-E maths Level Test and Class test.
Wednesday-A maths Test.
Thursday-POA test.

All the tests that involves calculation.(Big sigh!)

Labels: Im still daddy's little girl.

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:17 PM