Hello
Its been a few days since i last blog.Yeah,i was kinda of busy.Suddenly,I feel like blogging today.Okay so lets start with yesterday since my weekend was bored.So no point telling.If not,im sure my readers would fall asleep.
Yesterday:
My AEM course started yesterday.Went to school ealier than usual.Reach school.Bought biscuits from the canteen.Made our way to Ngee Ann Poly.The school is big.If i were to explore alone,i think i would be lost.Heh.Went to the classroom.It was very very very cold.First half of the day was just about the theory.I nearly fall asleep.Had lunch.Couldnt finished my food.On our way back to classroom,there were some poly students calling us Pizza Hut School.Hmm,so rude.While there are also others whom want to take orders.Tsk..tsk.Second half was the practical part.We did soldering(dont know if correct or not) and drilling.I was proud of myself that i did this all by myself.Last two years,i keep asking my friends to do the soldering part for me.Heh.Should also thanks Sahida for guiding me.So after the course,went home on our own.I was feeling very very tired when i reached home.Took a shower and rest.My headache was killing me yesterday so i ate my medicine and force myself to go to sleep.
Today:
Went to school with Syahidah.For today,my AEM starts at a later time.Had npcc meeting in the morning.Im involved in the AYG thingy.I havent make up my mind whether i want to go or not cause i will be missing 10 days of school.Sigh.But most probably,i will be going.First period was Social Studies.Started out with going through the exam papers but ended up telling ghost stories which creeps me out.Had a safety talk at hall after that.It was okay but it reminded me of one incident.Sigh.Recess.Had another session of safety talk.Recess again.It was already 12 after recess so we can be dismissed from class due to AEM.Went there.Listen to the theory first.Did the practical.This time we are supposed to do the Flashing of LED thingy.The bulb will light up when we talked.Cool right?I know.I did it all by myself again.Of course,i did seek for some help from the teacher.And and,my bulb did light up!Yeah.Before going home,bought some snacks from the shop at NP with our $3 coupons.Went home.Again,i was feeling very tired.Reached home.Showered.Eat dinner.Now im chatting with Wida.Thats all for today.
Tomorrow,i will just be attending school for attendance taking only.Will be going for AEM again.And on thursday,there will be cross country.Friday will be the parents teacher meeting.It is compulsory for parents to go for secondary 3 too.Sigh.
Everything is wrong.Everything is out of place.I feel so stressed,troubled and sad about this.But nobody knew.I wished they knew that i dont want to feel this way.When im with you,you make me feel as though im different.The odd one between you two.When im with them,im always left out.Tell me where do i belong?I feel as though i dont belong to anybody.Not here.Not there.Not anywhere.But im happy when im with you.I really do.Im suffering inside.At that moment,i really wanted to just sit down and cry.But i put on a strong front.It is not me at all that you were seeing.The real me is already crying.I was so frustrated that i want to hurt myself again but you once told me not to and i already promised you too.You tell me how can i released my frustration.Im sick of crying almost every night about this matter.I want to run away from this problem but i cant cause there's no way out.This problem is never going to end.Sigh.I dont want to cry anymore but somehow my tears wont stop flowing.Why am i feeling like this?I dont like it.Ahh..sigh sigh sighhhh..=(
I dont know whether i will be alright or not cause right now,i just cant take it anymore.I just feel like banging my head on the wall.But i cant.Sigh
Its been a few days since i last blog.Yeah,i was kinda of busy.Suddenly,I feel like blogging today.Okay so lets start with yesterday since my weekend was bored.So no point telling.If not,im sure my readers would fall asleep.
Yesterday:
My AEM course started yesterday.Went to school ealier than usual.Reach school.Bought biscuits from the canteen.Made our way to Ngee Ann Poly.The school is big.If i were to explore alone,i think i would be lost.Heh.Went to the classroom.It was very very very cold.First half of the day was just about the theory.I nearly fall asleep.Had lunch.Couldnt finished my food.On our way back to classroom,there were some poly students calling us Pizza Hut School.Hmm,so rude.While there are also others whom want to take orders.Tsk..tsk.Second half was the practical part.We did soldering(dont know if correct or not) and drilling.I was proud of myself that i did this all by myself.Last two years,i keep asking my friends to do the soldering part for me.Heh.Should also thanks Sahida for guiding me.So after the course,went home on our own.I was feeling very very tired when i reached home.Took a shower and rest.My headache was killing me yesterday so i ate my medicine and force myself to go to sleep.
Today:
Went to school with Syahidah.For today,my AEM starts at a later time.Had npcc meeting in the morning.Im involved in the AYG thingy.I havent make up my mind whether i want to go or not cause i will be missing 10 days of school.Sigh.But most probably,i will be going.First period was Social Studies.Started out with going through the exam papers but ended up telling ghost stories which creeps me out.Had a safety talk at hall after that.It was okay but it reminded me of one incident.Sigh.Recess.Had another session of safety talk.Recess again.It was already 12 after recess so we can be dismissed from class due to AEM.Went there.Listen to the theory first.Did the practical.This time we are supposed to do the Flashing of LED thingy.The bulb will light up when we talked.Cool right?I know.I did it all by myself again.Of course,i did seek for some help from the teacher.And and,my bulb did light up!Yeah.Before going home,bought some snacks from the shop at NP with our $3 coupons.Went home.Again,i was feeling very tired.Reached home.Showered.Eat dinner.Now im chatting with Wida.Thats all for today.
Tomorrow,i will just be attending school for attendance taking only.Will be going for AEM again.And on thursday,there will be cross country.Friday will be the parents teacher meeting.It is compulsory for parents to go for secondary 3 too.Sigh.
Everything is wrong.Everything is out of place.I feel so stressed,troubled and sad about this.But nobody knew.I wished they knew that i dont want to feel this way.When im with you,you make me feel as though im different.The odd one between you two.When im with them,im always left out.Tell me where do i belong?I feel as though i dont belong to anybody.Not here.Not there.Not anywhere.But im happy when im with you.I really do.Im suffering inside.At that moment,i really wanted to just sit down and cry.But i put on a strong front.It is not me at all that you were seeing.The real me is already crying.I was so frustrated that i want to hurt myself again but you once told me not to and i already promised you too.You tell me how can i released my frustration.Im sick of crying almost every night about this matter.I want to run away from this problem but i cant cause there's no way out.This problem is never going to end.Sigh.I dont want to cry anymore but somehow my tears wont stop flowing.Why am i feeling like this?I dont like it.Ahh..sigh sigh sighhhh..=(
I dont know whether i will be alright or not cause right now,i just cant take it anymore.I just feel like banging my head on the wall.But i cant.Sigh
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