Sad.
Im not feeling very happy today.I feel so useless at this point of time.Sigh.
Monday:
Dont have to go to school due to Vesak Day.Had a study group with Syahidah,Eiss,WJ,Raihan,Zahin,Hadi and Hanis.Went home earlier than them cause i got tuition.Had another 2 hours and 30 minutes of A maths.Studied Chemistry and A maths till 1 in the morning.Thank you WJ for willing to stay up late too to teach me in Chemistry.
Tuesday:
Had A maths Paper 2 first.It was super difficult.I didnt do quite a number of questions.Sigh.Next was Chemistry paper.It wasnt that difficult but i did commit some minor mistakes.Ate Pizza Hut with Syahidah,Wj,Eiss,Raihan,Amit and Haziq.Thank you WJ for the treat.He spent quite a lot.Studied for an hour in school.Went back home.Showered and head to tuition.Had another 2 hours of A maths.Studied for Physics till midnight.Again,thanks WJ for teaching me.
Today:
A maths paper 1 was as difficult as paper 2.I know that i have no hope in passing A maths.Sigh.Physics was also difficult.I was kinda disappointed in myself as i forget some of the definitions and the SI units.Sigh.After school,waited for Afifah.Went home.Showered and now blogging.Im having my gastrics again because i never eat since morning till now.I don't feel like eating too.It seems like im torturing myself.I think i deserved it over what had happened.Tomorrow will be the last exam paper.Next week will be the released of results.Sigh.Sigh.
I hate myself.You may say its alright,but its not alright for me.You may say nobody is blaming me but im the one who is blaming myself.I cried soon after you walked away.Sigh.I don't know why.Im stupid,i know.My stupidity caused you to be worried and even more sick.Im sorry that i didnt think about your condition.Im so so so so sorry for what had happened.I really am.Sigh.Im sorry,Bestie.Sigh.
Im not feeling very happy today.I feel so useless at this point of time.Sigh.
Monday:
Dont have to go to school due to Vesak Day.Had a study group with Syahidah,Eiss,WJ,Raihan,Zahin,Hadi and Hanis.Went home earlier than them cause i got tuition.Had another 2 hours and 30 minutes of A maths.Studied Chemistry and A maths till 1 in the morning.Thank you WJ for willing to stay up late too to teach me in Chemistry.
Tuesday:
Had A maths Paper 2 first.It was super difficult.I didnt do quite a number of questions.Sigh.Next was Chemistry paper.It wasnt that difficult but i did commit some minor mistakes.Ate Pizza Hut with Syahidah,Wj,Eiss,Raihan,Amit and Haziq.Thank you WJ for the treat.He spent quite a lot.Studied for an hour in school.Went back home.Showered and head to tuition.Had another 2 hours of A maths.Studied for Physics till midnight.Again,thanks WJ for teaching me.
Today:
A maths paper 1 was as difficult as paper 2.I know that i have no hope in passing A maths.Sigh.Physics was also difficult.I was kinda disappointed in myself as i forget some of the definitions and the SI units.Sigh.After school,waited for Afifah.Went home.Showered and now blogging.Im having my gastrics again because i never eat since morning till now.I don't feel like eating too.It seems like im torturing myself.I think i deserved it over what had happened.Tomorrow will be the last exam paper.Next week will be the released of results.Sigh.Sigh.
I hate myself.You may say its alright,but its not alright for me.You may say nobody is blaming me but im the one who is blaming myself.I cried soon after you walked away.Sigh.I don't know why.Im stupid,i know.My stupidity caused you to be worried and even more sick.Im sorry that i didnt think about your condition.Im so so so so sorry for what had happened.I really am.Sigh.Im sorry,Bestie.Sigh.
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